Exam Exhaustion

"Two things fill the mind with ever increasing wonder and awe - the starry heavens above me and the moral law within me." - Immanuel Kant

"And sometimes you meet yourself back where you started, but stronger." - Yrsa Daley-Ward

Exam exhausts my mentality, my ability to write, speak, or construct a logical and clear idea. I am in a blank state after exam this whole day. No matter how hard I try, there seems to be endless fog and blur motion before me. Philosophy does some magic and shines some light - the two quotes above.

I first read Kant's words in Chinese at 19 and was forever inspired since then. I made some effort to search this quote in English but it ended in vain. "Don't bother, if the words are powerful in the message being conveyed, translated to any language will be equally powerful", I believe. And today, this turns out to be true.

I'm super very longing to go back to where I started. It reminds me of last year 2nd semester. When I was doing philosophy at uni, I felt like a kid again, reconnecting with my earliest thinking. I was alive, curious, happy, hopeful and motivated. Somehow, these two quotes feel like the perfect match together. At every stage of my life, I've been on and off philosophy. Whenever I was, wherever I went, I somehow ended back in philosophy. You could say it's the trap of my life. But it could also be my fate. Desecrate & Sartre are the ones whom I need to further understand. Camus, De Botton, Heidegger, Kant, and Wittgenstein are the ones whom still have many more new and transcending things to teach me. I am really very inpatient to get out of this dead end major by Wednesday (16 Nov) this week.

Btw, this is tonight's supermoon

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